January 27th, 2012
Open Question: What do I do if I’m lovesick?
Afterschool I was in the store near my school buying my little sis some juice and I was in the isle where the drinks were to the right. Then I see this 7th grader coming in the next isle smiling shyly and I wondered who it was 2. Then I saw this guy(8th grade like me) who was my 6th-7th grade crush, I was over him…at least that’s what I thought.
I see him and this 7th grader talking, and she’s playing the shy dumb blonde and I heard him say, “You saw our basketball game?” By the way they were talking, it was pretty obvious something was going on between them. Then I went 2 the counter 2 pay and looked back on them and I saw them hug, idk if they kissed cuz from the position they were in. Then they came out pretending nothing happened in the isle and left with their separate group of friends, indicating it was some secret relationship.
I was so depressed and I didn’t kno why cuz I thought I didn’t like him now. I called my best friend(who goes 2 school in manhattan) and she said I just wasn’t over him, but I still cried cuz it’s the realization was that I was nothing compared to this gorgeous 7th grader. He probably didn’t kno I exist. My eating habits(I already had minor eating issues, binging, purging, starving) and this brought all of them back except 4 binging and purging. Every time I think about it, I have no appetite even when I’m hungry. It happened this week Tuesday and I’ve lost 3lbs so far cuz I see no reason to eat cuz I feel worthless. It’s not just about starving 2 be thin, it’s starving cuz you feel nothing can carry your problems away, not even food which used 2 comfort me.
I’m depressed
I miss my best friend
And I’m lovesick(if that’s what u call it)
Btw: this is my 1st time dealing with a boy-love situation
Talking 2 my parents about it us a definite no, they’re are 2 religious and think I don’t like boys like that
What should I do?
